What Jesus Taught

What goes on here as I try to clear my head of sleep? Since I sleep in segments, I wake up from sleep 5 or 6 times every 24 hours. This gives me plenty of practice to get free from the grasp of sleep, and to clearly think again as I gain control of my brain once again.

Did you ever stop to think that when you sleep you give control of your brain to a different part of you. I sometimes think it is a different personality. Since I wake up so much every day I have a lot of opportunity to analyze my dreams.

Every time that I wake up I am caught in the midst of a dream as I fight for conscious control of my thinking capabilities once again. What impresses me the most is that there is a genius living inside of me. He has the capabilities to create totally realistic dream worlds inside of me that are solid to touch, see, hear, smell, and taste.

Yet when I wake these inner worlds all collapse and they disappear. Try as I might sometime I can’t make them stay and to become my permanent reality. Yet there are many cases of people who have mental illnesses who do live in the imagined reality found within their mind, or soul. Many times it is a far

better place to live than in this world in which the rest of us live. Yet as a Messianic Jewish man I know that the physical world is where I need to be. Here I connect to the spirit world where God, devils, angels, and I myself all live. It would seem sometimes to be like a dream world, but it is a very

serious place. There is more reality in the spirit world than in this physical world. The physical world is always changing, as is our body, and our very personality. Sometimes it happens so fast that I have a bit of difficulty discovering who and what I now am. Recent changes have made me to

discover that I have a new identity completely. Inwardly at first, as it takes time and material resources to accomplish the physical equivalent of a dream, or vision. It takes dedicated action as well to act out plans, and dreams to make them become a physical reality.

Now inwardly I am a Messianic Jew, I live full time in Israel permanently, I am married to an Israeli woman who also is a Messianic Jew. My housing is chosen for me there, and the work that I will do for the remainder of my life is now known to me. It is exciting to say the very least.

I was none of these things before. Therefore I am now found to be a very different man. Just about everything about me has changed, and the other changes that are soon to come to my life outwardly really do change all things as I have ever known them. I hold back from openly sharing all of the details to people that I have not yet met.

So this is where I find myself. When also mixed together with the sleeping dream state I see several times every day, it can be a bit confusing at times to keep track of who I presently am. I know that many other people face challenges similar to these ones that I face.

Imagine being an American or Canadian pioneer 150 years ago going out west by wagon train. Leaving everything you once knew behind you. Your own life disappearing, and a totally new life now becoming yours. So it is not odd at all what I find myself passing through.

The difference is that it is my own experience, and these changes are now happening to me personally. I find that a lot of prayer to Father God in the name of Jesus helps me a whole lot. There is much help that can only be found in prayer. We all need someone to trust in to help us along mentally.

There is great freedom in the world of thoughts. True freedom can sometimes be had here. It is a welcome reprise from the cruel physical world in which we live. It is like taking a much needed vacation, or even a few days off from work. We need mental and emotional rest as well as physical rest.

Self psychoanalyzing myself I find to help a whole lot too. I like to know what is going on inside of me. If I find anything wrong, or crazy in my own opinion, or that goes against my core values, then changes need to be made. I do not want to self inflict pain and heartache upon myself.

I want to be a help to myself. I find that writing can be a huge help, especially when it is of the self analyzing type. Now that I have a true freedom in writing, I can, and I begin to do it, in my blog posts which are so much easier to write now. The new changes in me opened new freedom in writing.

I am true to myself now. What I want the most in life I now change what I do to match it. I want everything inside of me to be on the same team. There used to be a continual civil war raging inside of me. That made for plenty of very dark, lost, and extremely painful years.

Little by little Father God is giving me freedom from this. I enjoy being at peace inside of me for the most part. And yet the storms of life come to everyone. The devils and demons that surround everyone, and get inside of more people than we would like to admit, are continually attacking with but little reprieve.

Yet this is the world in which we live. I find that the greatest freedom has come to me when I just accepted things as they are. In the grand scheme of things in life, I can’t change a thing. I did not create myself, or the world in which I live. I did not ask to be born, I just came to consciousness one day.

Now I do not fight the system trying to change everything. I find it so much more refreshing to discover how to perform at my very best in the system that exists whether I want it to or not. To fight it brings only frustration, pain, heartache, and defeat. I will leave that to people who are as ignorant as I used to be.

I have seen the light. I now walk in the light as Father God is in the light. Now my life performs much better. There are fewer regrets, and little by little the torture than comes from having flashbacks of very painful past experiences lessens, and happens with less frequency.

Things are getting better inside of me. I hope that some of the things that you have read here will be of benefit to you. It is my sincere hope that they will.